I never thought, after reading the title, you'd jump into this blog. Thanks for coming. I try my best not to bore you.
I have only one request: Please don't judge me, and please don't think I'm praising myself. I'll tell you what I've done and gone through.
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A boring paragraph below. 🙂
Maybe this paragraph should be boring for you. But tbh, I'm not writing this blog for you. I'm writing it for myself mostly. Sorry for being clear.
The year 2024 was a gust of wind for me. I don't remember when it started and when it ending/ended. There are a lot of good things happened this year, and I'm really grateful for those moments. But all I can remember are the bad ones only. The moments where I collapsed, the moment I cried silently, the moment I lost everything in a single second, and the moment where I lost my senses.
I was depressed soon after the year started. So many things were happening all at once. From losing a friendship with one of my closest people, to keep understanding myself that "I'm Rs and I can't fall behind". I know expectation hurts, but I expect, I expect cause I believe in hope. I hope cause I've faith. Faith in everything I have, doesn't matter living or non-living.
I lost Dhaniya. My first phone. My brother gave me that on 25th Nov 2019. Yes, I was attached to her. Dhaniya kept so many secrets of me. And I tell her everything (I have one diary app installed in her. And I write there. My Diary name was Emily, and then I changed her to Annabelle. Personal Reasons Ahead)
I lost Chii, my bird. I found her in my college on 28th Nov 2023. But I was not able to hold her responsibility. I'm not a responsible person. My parents have taken care of her. The time she needed me the most, I was sleeping carelessly. She died in my dad's hand. I was so shaken that I wasn't able to see her. I saw her dying. She was in pain. I was the reason.
After that, I started to ignore people. I started to ignore everything that could affect me mentally. And this is where I fell again in someone's friendship. And let me make it clear, it was friendship only. And an entry of another guy and a tale of lies broke it. Now, everything is superficial. Though, I'm grateful to her for her friendship. She helped me a lot.
But yeah, I have a pen-friend. She fights with me in every talk, blocks me for no reason, scolds me, and makes me apologize to her even if it's her mistake. And still, she's my inspiration. She's a hard-working girl pursuing MBBS. And she is carrying me forward from the first meet. We don't talk much, but whenever we talk, I feel motivated. She's one of the reasons for my motivation. Thanks, HG.
And if I'm talking about her, then how can I forget about my college friend SK. He's stupid, brainless, and brain-dead. He must praise me for my friendship 😂 but rather than that he throws beautiful cursed words on me. When I go to college, we remain together until I take my bus. He's a friendly leech with no parasitism.
I have no social life now. It was there at the beginning of the year. Not much a little. But I don't have it now. At this moment in life, I hate being social in person. Virtually, I'm okay and enjoying well there. I have some great connections.
"The time you need more time, you get less, and time flows faster than usual. -RS".
This is a bitter truth. So, it's better to go on and focus on what is coming. Sometimes, when I work, I forget my name. Haha, who cares about depression? I guess that's just a suppression of unsaid words. Don't endure yourself. If you want to talk, I'm there. And we will cry together. 😂
Now, you must be thinking I'm a sad person, an extremely sad person. But this is not true. The opposite is true. Nothing lasts long for me. I keep on moving. If something troubles me, I work too much and lost there. I love peace and calmness.
What I achieved in 2024 🦥
- Won Social Winter of Code, Arcjet Challenge, and Devfest AI.
- Started writing blogs. Still not monetized but looking for sponsors. All my blogs are featured. (thanks AB for motivating me)
- 81 meaningful PRs merged this year. (I know it's less, but I didn't work properly the whole year)
- Sponsored by LLMWare.ai. (one-time sponsorship)
- Signed a contract with Quira and monetized myself.
- Signed a one-time contract with Arcjet. (paid and completed)
- Signed a contract with LLMWare.ai. (paid and ongoing)
- Earned around $2500 in the last three months (earned 70% of it in Oct and Nov)
- October was again a good month of open-source for me. Contributed to Arcjet, Mattermost, Daytona, Kitops, ChartDB, etc,.
- Earned Github bounties. (all on Daytona)
- Speaker at some virtual events and talked about open-source.
- Met awesome people and made connections with some founders and CEOs.
- Passed semester exams without failing. (Biggest win 😂)
- Became a good designer and enhanced my coding skills.
- I got so much recognition and swags for my work.
- Became fearless in public speaking and interviews.
- First time moved out of my home w/o my parents.
- Being an old school and not genZ but still understand them.
What I didn't achieve in 2024 😅
- Didn't study much. I need more hours for my personal study.
- Being healthy.
- 0 internships, and didn't apply in any.
- Unable to monetize my blog writing. (though I think I'll be able to do it soon. I know my writing style)
- Failed to get into a relationship. (I forget about it every time)
- I didn't spend time with myself. (I talk to myself, but this year, I didn't get much time)
- Let my social life die.
- Screen time is still 12-15 hours around. Failed to minimize it.
- Unable to work on my self project.
- I failed to speak less. I speak too much. More than too much!
I guess that's it. I'm unable to recall anything. Will add it later, if I get any.
What I learned 🐦🔥
This year was in fast-forward mode. And taught me some great lessons.
- Move with the pace. Don't fall behind. If you fall behind, forget that part and focus on what's coming next. Don't waste your time on regret.
- Be happy with what you have. Get motivation with others, rather than being jealous.
- Try to enjoy every moment. Even when you're finding bugs in your code.
- Don't expect anything. Just keep doing your work.
- Be synchronistic but don't forget your traditions.
- Sometimes it is better to be a dumbo.
- Don't say the truth. It now comes under bad habit.
- Be independent.
- Be neutral (don't get too much excited for a win, and too demotivated for a loss)
- Never give your time to someone who doesn't even respect you. Help him/her if they need it and that's it.
Let's end this blog. 😑
Wait, are you also looking for my New Year's Resolution???
Sadly, I don't have any. I try to keep my mouth closed and work even more. That's it.
Every year is different and unique. I don't say, the year 2024 is bad for me. Just bad times. One day, it will also gone.
I hope the new year brings a lot of prosperity in your lives and you become MINGLE, if you're SINGLE. My best wishes to you. (wish me for the same)
That's all for the last day of the year. Thank you everyone for being there with me. Happy New Year all! Stay happy and stay blessed!
Top comments (13)
You’ve achieved a lot this year, Rohan 🔥
Be happy, be proud and keep working hard. There will be months and years with no gain & only pain, but the work will compound over time.
Hoping so. I wish you a very Happy New Year!!
Rula diya bhai blog pdhke 😭
Kash aap jaisa mahaan bn ske ham
Charan sparsh kro hmare putra
What an incredible journey @rohan_sharma ! Wishing you the very best with your New Year's Resolution (personal to you).
Haha... Nothing personal in my life...
I wish you a very happy new year!!
Nice one! Want to see more of your blogs!
They are on the way!!! Keeping them for new year 😂
Reading this felt like chatting with a friend. Thank you for sharing your journey so authentically. The lessons you’ve listed are golden—especially the one about staying neutral. Happy New Year!
It's based on true story.. Haha
I wish you a very happy new year!
Nice @rohan_sharma 🐛🐛🐛
haha.. thanks!
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